Here is a piece that is still in the testing and development phase.
I’m trying to get here and post; I really am. I think it’s been so hard because I am so busy, and it feels like no one reads this anyway. I keep telling myself that even if no one reads this I need to keep writing. I need to process through what is happening and how it affects what I eat. I need to vent and to celebrate. I also tell myself that even if one person gets something from me then it’s worth it. I honestly do care about what others get rather than what I get. To me that is the most important thing.
That being said I have been busy. I have been working a lot for the day job. I have expanded the places I go to include chambers of commerce and women’s groups. I am also working hard to bring in more commercial/ new construction work. I feel like I have been really lagging on that front.
I have also been super busy with the jewelry biz. We are finally opening up the boutique side of the business. The boutique part of the business includes handmade gift items. I have been busy researching shopping and sewing trying to get the boutique launched. I still have a ton of other crafty stuff to do , have to create a packet of introduction and have more shopping to do. I have also been busy working the farmers market. My partner and I have been working mostly all weekend every weekend. There have been special events going on down on the farm. Last weekend we had a hot rod show on the farm. So much fun =) This weekend is solstice at the farmers market.
As if I didn’t already have enough to do, I’ve picked up some extra work that’s very part-time and self scheduled. I need more work like I need a hole in my head ,but this is allowing me to monetize some of my down time and bring extra money into the house.
That’s what I’ve been up to in a nutshell. The house is a mess, I am exhausted and the more I get done the more that needs to be done. I last weighed in at 168 lbs. I’m trying hard to stay on point this week and track everything. If all goes well I will be back later with a menu. Here’s to hoping this will be a good day!
It’s been another long week. Lots of networking, mixers , forming strategic partnerships etc. I am proud to say that I did a pretty good job of keeping things together. Even with eating out , mixers etc. I still stayed within my Points + budget. I worked hard to make plans for each day and I stuck to them. I planned for rough days and carried food with me, I planned for eating out and made smart choices. Going forward I need to be more careful to include enough fresh fruits and vegetables.
Where things kind of fell apart was this weekend at the farmers market. Saturday I had way too much coffee filled with way too many additives. For breakfast I had an Attain bar rather than some good fresh produce and whole foods. Lunch was a sandwich on a croissant that also included bacon. Dinner was not full of fresh produce. If Saturday was bad Sunday was a disaster that we won’t go into. Going forward I need to carry more produce for munching, find other things to do when bored other than munching and keep a bank of Points + for the weekend. I think this will be easier to do since going forward we will only be working one day most weekends. Also, as time goes by we will get produce people at the markets.
I’m also having a problem with weigh ins. I weigh in low all week, then after the weekend I weigh in high on Monday. It usually only takes a day or two for my weight to go back down. I don’t want to change my weigh in day because I like knowing exactly what I have to play with on the weekend, also I like starting the week off fresh on Monday. I’ll think about it.
Today begins a new week. I’m off to get it started right =)
Because of everything that has been going on I was determined to track today. I don’t want to undo my hard work and gain a ton of weight. I don’t want to feel icky because I have been stressed, drinking too much coffee and not eating right. I also know that any bit of structure I can impose is going to help me feel more in control.
I made some mistakes at breakfast. I wasn’t going to have much coffee because I know my tummy is a bit off. I wasn’t going to order anything heavy. I ended up having French Toast and drinking a lot of coffee. What I did do right was was have a small portion, know the Points + value before I ordered, skipped the butter, went very light on the syrup and substituted egg whites (the picture below is not exactly what I had, but close enough).
14 days is how long it’s been since I have had a day off. Well, I think it’s 14 days because at this point I’m not really sure. With the changes at work I am a ton busier and I’m all over the place. In addition to that I’ve been working at the farmers market all weekend with the jewelry business. We had originally signed up for just Sunday because we thought we would be at another market on Saturdays. The other market fell through and we had no where to sell on Saturday. We wanted to add Saturdays to this market but we were already paid up for the month for Sundays and couldn’t switch to Saturdays. The solution was to add Saturdays and work both days until the end of the month. It’s a ton of work, but we saw that this market is a lot busier and has more vendors and events on Saturday. I always find it funny that I am so wiped out after the market. Setup and tear down does take some work , but most of the day I do nothing.
A week? Really? How have I not posted in a week? Well lets see there was a thousand meetings, taking care of stuff at home and weekends working the farmers market. I guess it has been a week. Sheesh. Rather than a monstorus re-cap I’ll just say it’s been crazy and I don’t even want to know what I weigh. That being said I am trying really hard to take control this week. Why is it that I see some success on the scale and then just lose it (the momentum and my brain lol).
Yesterday was a breakfast meeting. I have never been to this group before and had a bit of an ordering snafu which I will spare you the details of. I ended up having coffee, 2 pancakes, 1 scrambled egg, 2 bacon and blackberry jam (15 Points + estimate). I was not looking for this big of a breakfast, but it happened. Continue Reading »
Upside down is exactly how I feel right now. Some things have changed at work and I’m still trying hard to wrap my mind around the changes. I also have to figure out how to make the changes work for me , work for my position and work for the good of our company and my boss. I have no problem doing whatever I can to make my bosses’ life easier or any of the other changes. It’s more figuring out how to make them work and still doing the best job I can for my boss and the company.
I also have some stuff I’m trying to straighten out for the jewelry business. It’s not so much the straightening out that’s difficult it’s really something else. The feeling that I’m not good enough, and the feeling that I am letting my partner down, and the feeling that I’m afraid she’s going to think I don’t want to help. Add that to the stress at work and some other things going on around the house and I feel thoroughly turned upside down and stressed out.
Breakfast was just a couple of clementines. I wanted coffee but my stomach said otherwise, and I knew I had a meeting at Starbucks later in the day (0 Points +).